I'm in PAIN

woke up from a nightmare,burst into tears. Still could hear your voice giving me the news, i could still hear Ms F saying that she was sorry coz didn't tell me earlier.OMG I shouldn't do this, it's not good.

It just happpened toooooo FAST. It seemed only yesterday you were sitting beside me and telling me your story and the next day you telling me the news...i hate the news...I HATE IT.

Why? WHY?

I'm gonna miss your 'baibun' every morning, that simple gestures that ALWAYS made me laugh and smile. you did that since we known each other and never missed it not even once..... Your 'FUNNY NAUGHTY' face, how could i forget that face???

"he would still be here, it's not like out of the country, you could still meet him" kept replaying in my ears, It wouldn't be the same without you there, i won't be the same, my day wouldn't be the same..... I HATE THIS FEELING, when would it go away. PLEASE go away!!